Daily Archives: April 22, 2016

A Disappointment Isn’t A Disappointment

“Why did I agree to do it?”

I have to go on stage and play a Beethoven Piano Concerto with Orchestra.  There are at least 1,000 people in the audience.  I haven’t played the piano in 30 years.  I will fail.

It’s intermission.

I have 10-minutes to save myself.

I stumble towards another musician backstage, a woman who unlike me actually PLAYS THE FREAKING PIANO.  I ask her to fill in.  She covers her ears, shakes her head and backs away laughing.

Pacing and wringing my hands, I realize the only thing to do is find the conductor.  I have to tell her I can’t perform.   But she’s counting on me.  Disappointing her feels as shameful as public humiliation…. What will I do?

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