The Forty-Days-Forty-Gifts project is complete for now! Many people in our Spiritual Center participated and had great insights on how the process changed them. I wanted to write about it. But sometimes I get tired the sound of my voice. Enter Jennifer Merlich, a talented writer and congregant. She gave me permission to guest post a a piece from her blog, Please enjoy her eloquent understanding of the Forty Gifts process. With love to all! – Bonnie
I was recently the recipient of an incredible act of anonymous kindness. It came from out of nowhere, at exactly the right time. The magnitude of the gift moved me to tears, and I was so grateful and profoundly moved by the generosity of my unknown benefactor. But I was also sure there had been a mistake. In the midst of this beautiful act, I am ashamed to admit that I was momentarily overcome by feelings of unworthiness. I simply couldn’t believe I was deserving of such radical kindness. Had I been face to face with my benefactor, I would have given them 100 reasons why they “shouldn’t have”, attempting to convince them that they were wrong about me—that their generosity was misdirected. Fortunately, I quickly realized that to focus on my feelings of unworthiness would be to dishonor the gift and the beautiful spirit in which it was so lovingly given.